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                               Brian W.Aldiss

                                  OUTSIDE

     They never went out of the house. The man whose name was Harley  used
to get up first. Sometimes he would take a stroll through the building  in
his sleeping suit - the temperature remained always mild, day  after  day.
Then he would rouse Calvin, the handsome, broad man who looked  as  if  he
could command a dozen talents and never actually used one. He made as much
company as Harley needed.
     Dapple, the girl with killing grey eyes and black hair, was  a  light
sleeper. The sound of the two men talking would wake her. She would get up
and go to rouse May; together they would go down and prepare a meal. While
they were doing that, the other two members of the household,  Jagger  and
Pief, would be rousing.
     That was how every "day" began: not with the inkling of anything like
dawn, but just when the  six  of  them  had  slept  themselves  back  into
wakefulness. They never exerted themselves during  the  day,  but  somehow
when they climbed back into their beds they slept soundly enough.
     The only excitement of the day occured when  they  first  opened  the
store. The store was a small room between the kitchen and the  blue  room.
In the far wall was set a wide shelf, and upon this shelf their  existence
depended. Here, all the supplies "arrived". They would lock  the  door  of
the bare room last thing, and when they  returned  in  the  morning  their
needs - food, linen, a new washing machine - would be awaiting them on the
shelf. That was just an accepted feature of their  existence:  they  never
questioned it among themselves.
     On this morning, Dapple and May were ready with the meal  before  the
four men came down. Dapple even had to go to the foot of the  wide  stairs
and call before Pief appeared; so that the opening of the store had to  be
postponed till after they had eaten, for although the opening  had  in  no
way become a ceremony, the women were nervous of going in  alone.  It  was
one of those things...
     "I hope to get some tobacco," Harley said as he  unlocked  the  door.
"I'm nearly out of it."
     They walked in and looked at the shelf. It was all but empty.
     "No food," observed May, hands on her aproned waist. "We shall be  on
short rations today."
     It was not the first time this had happened. Once - how long ago now?
- they kept little track of time - no food had appeared for three days and
the shelf had remained empty. They had accepted the shortage placidly.
     "We shall eat you before we starve, May," Pief said, and they laughed
briefly to acknowledge the joke, although Pief had cracked  it  last  time
too. Pief was an unobtrusive little man: not the sort one would notice  in
a crowd. His small jokes were his most precious possession.
     Two packets only lay on the ledge. One was Harley's tobacco, one  was
a pack of cards. Harley pocketed the one with a grunt  and  displayed  the
other, slipping the pack from its wrapping  and  fanning  it  towards  the
others.
     "Anyone play?" he asked.
     "Poker," Jagger said.
     "Canasta."
     "Gin rummy."
     "We'll play later," Calvin said. "It'll pass the time in the evening.
" The cards would be a challenge to them; they would have to sit  together
to play, round a table, facing each other.
     Nothing was in operation to separate them, but there seemed no strong
force to keep them together, once the tiny business of opening  the  store
was over. Jagger worked the vacuum cleanser down the hall, past the  front
door that did not open, and rode it up  the  stairs  to  clean  the  upper
landings; not that the place was dirty, but cleaning was something you did
anyway in the morning. The women sat with Pief desultorily discussing  how
to manage the rationing, but after that they lost contact with each  other
and drifted away on their own. Calvin and Harley had already strolled  off
in different directions.
     The house was a rambling affair. It had  few  windows,  and  such  as
there were did not open, were unbreakable and admitted no light.  Darkness
lay everywhere; illumination from an invisible source followed one's entry
into a room - but the black had to be entered before it faded. Every  room
was furnished, but with odd pieces  that  bore  little  relation  to  each
other, as if there was  no  purpose  for  the  room.  Rooms  equipped  for
purposeless beings have that air about them.
     No plan was discernable on first or second floor or in the long empty
attics. Only familiarity could reduce the maze-like quality  of  room  and
corridor. At least there was ample time for familiarity.
     Harley spent a long while walking about, hands  in  pockets.  At  one
point he met Dapple:  she  was  drooping  gracefully  over  a  sketchbook,
amateurishly copying a picture that hung on one of the walls -  a  picture
fo the room in which she sat. They exchanged  a  few  words,  then  Harley
moved on.
     Something lurked in the edge of his mind like a spider in the  corner
of its web. He stepped into what they called the piano room  and  then  he
realized what was worrying him. Almost furtively, he glanced round as  the
darkness slipped away, and then he looked at the big piano.  Some  strange
things had arrived on the shelf from time to time and had been distributed
over the house: one of them stood on the top of the piano now.
     It was a model, heavy and about two feet high, squat,  almost  round,
with a sharp nose and four buttressed vanes. Harley knew what it  was.  It
was a ground-to-space ship, a model of the burly ferries that lumbered  up
to the spaceship proper.
     That had caused them more unsettlement than when the piano itself had
appeared in the store. Keeping  his  eyes  on  the  model,  Harley  seated
himself at the piano stool and sat tensely, trying to draw something  from
the rear of his mind ... something connected with spaceships.
     Whatever it was, it was unpleasant, and it dodged backwards  whenever
he thought he had laid a mental finger on it. So it always eluded him.  If
only he could discuss it with someone, it  might  be  teased  out  of  its
hiding place. Unpleasant: menacing, yet with a promise  entangled  in  the
menace.
     If he could get at it, meet it boldly face to face, he could  do  ...
something definite. And until he faced it, he could not even say what  the
something definite was he wanted to do.
     A footfall behind him. Without turning, Harley deftly pushed  up  the
piano lid and ran a finger along the keys. Only  then  did  he  look  back
carelessly over his  shoulder.  Calvin  stood  there,  hands  in  pockets,
looking solid and comfortable.
     "Saw the light in here," he said easily. "I thought I'd drop in as  I
was passing."
     "I was thinking I would play the piano awhile," Harley answered  with
a smile. The thing was not discussable, even with a near acquaintance like
Calvin because ... because of the nature of the thing ... because one  had
to behave like a normal, unworried human being. That at  least  was  sound
and clear and gave him comfort: behave like a normal human being.
     Reassured, he pulled a gentle tumble of music from the  keyboard.  He
played well. They all played well, Dapple, May, Pief ... as soon  as  they
had assembled the piano, they had all played well.  Was  that  -  natural?
Harley shot a  glance  at  Calvin.  The  stocky  man  leaned  against  the
instrument, back to that disconcerting model, not a  care  in  the  world.
Nothing showed on his face but an expression  of  bland  amiability.  They
were all amiable, never quarrelling together.
     The six of them gathered for a scanty lunch, their talk was trite and
cheerful, and the afternoon followed on the same pattern as  the  morning,
as all the other mornings: secure, comfortable, aimless.  Only  to  Harley
did the pattern seem slightly out of focus; he  now  had  a  clue  to  the
problem. It was small enough, but in the dead calm of their  days  it  was
large enough.
     May had dropped the clue. When she helped herself  to  jelly,  Jagger
laughingly accused her of taking more than her  fair  share.  Dapple,  who
always defended May, said: "She's taken less than you, Jagger."
     "No," May corrected, "I think I have more than anyone else. I took it
for an interior motive."
     It was the kind of pun anyone made at times. But  Harley  carried  it
away to consider. He paced  round  one  of  the  silent  rooms.  Interior,
ulterior motives... Did the others here feel the  disquiet  he  felt?  Had
they a reason for concealing that disquiet? And another question:
     Where was "here"?
     He shut that one down sharply.
     Deal with one thing at a time. Grope your way gently  to  the  abyss.
Categorize your knowledge.
     One: Earth was getting slightly the worst of a cold war with Nitity.
     Two: the Nititians possessed the alarming ability of  being  able  to
assume the identical appearance of their enemies.
     Three: by this means they could permeate human society.
     Four: Earth was unable to view the Nititian civilization from inside.
     Inside ... a wave of claustrophobia swept over Harley as he  realized
that these cardinal facts he knew bore no relation to  this  little  world
inside. They came, by what means he did not know, from outside,  the  vast
abstraction that one of them had ever seen. He had a mental picture  of  a
starry void in which men and monsters swam or battled,  and  then  swiftly
erased it. Such ideas did not conform with  the  quiet  behaviour  of  his
companions; if they never spoke about outside, did they think about it?
     Uneasily, Harley moved about the room; the parquet floor  echoed  the
indecision of his footsteps. He had walked into the billiards room. Now he
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